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An apple you are from the past,
of that which Adam and Eve took
A forbidden fruit I am not to eat
but stare and wonder for until when.

Funny how I imagine myself ,
with kids I used to dream, a family
I want to make with the man
I deeply fall in love with.

It has gone not so further,
but ends too soon-
A sight from afar,
tender neither touch nor kiss.
–rather for my eyes only.

Hold on to our plans,
but you shatter this delicate heart.
This is no mortal, I tell you
and so the whole me.

No promises,
but cling to the untold.
A rosebud, I am to bloom
but dries out in drought.

Your filthy words?
A knife against my chest.
Say no hate for my tears,
for they fall only for you.

A day to realize of my worth,
is also a day
I end up not loving you,
anymore…

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Daughter:
This is me. Let me be.
I love you, but I want to be free.
You’re my mother, I am your child
I may be lesbian, but I am not wild.
I respect you, please respect me
Wash away your uncertainty
This is still me, the daughter you knew
Only circumstances brought us to feud.

Mother:
My heart is torn into pieces
I’m hurting, no pretenses
I understand you,pls do the same to your mother
It’s not easy for me, my dear daughter
I may accept it sooner or later
But I still pray you’ll change for the better
I love you, and I hope we’ll get through this
We’re family and deserve an eternal bliss

(Inspired by Charice’s recent revelation about her sexuality and her mom’s painful reaction to it.)
Photo credits to the rightful owners.

Makulay ang Buhay?

Heto ako nakaupo sa gilid
Walang ginagawa kun’di sumilip
Sa bintanang nakabukas
Ramdam ang malamig na hanging nagmumula sa labas
Naiisip ang mga taong pinakamamahal
Naaalala ang mga problema ‘pag ako’y nagdadasal
Nangingilid ang mga luha sa aking mga mata
Balik-tanaw ko ang dati noong ako ay bata pa
Inosente at walang problema
Tanging nasa isip ay maglaro sa kalsada
Masaya! Kasama ang ibang mga bata

Ako’y napapapikit na lamang sa naiisip
Nagtatanong sa Poong Maykapal kung bakit,
Mga problema wari ko’y sa akin lumalapit
Pwede bang sa iba muna?
Bakit ba ako na naman?
Ako’y tahimik na lang sa isang tabi
Nakatikom ang aking mga labi
Pero utak ko’y nag-aalimpuyo
Masakit ang ulo na nakatungo
Nangingilid kaninang mga luha, bumuhos na
Sumisikip ang dibdib, nahihirapan huminga
Masakit ang lalamunan at hirap makalunok
Mga pagsubok ng buhay hindi ko labis maarok
Kailan ko maiintindihan ang takbo ng kapalaran
Kung utak ko’y gulong-gulo,
May hinanakit na nakabalot sa aking puso

‘Makulay ang buhay”, wika nila
Tanong ko sa sarili ,”Sa akin ba ay iba?”
Pero pilit kong minumulat ang aking mga mata
Sa mga pagkakataon na siguro’y aking nabalewala
Inaalo ang sarili sa harap ng salamin
Pangiti-ngiti, tinitingnan kung bagay ba sa akin
Sa huli, malalim na buntong hininga
Ang pinakakawalan sa gitna ng aking pag-iisa
At sana sa pagsapit ng gabi
Anghel dela gwardiya, sana sa akin tumabi
Upang ako’y protektahan at gabayan
At’tong isip kong magulo ay maliwanagan

Ako ay ordinaryong tao lamang
Problema ay natural lang
Ang pagsubok ay di natatapos
Pero solusyon man ay di rin nauubos

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Leave It Behind

Today, I felt like I waited for a raindrop in the drought

It sunk in suddenly I was taken aback

It was abrupt, like magic, I was helpless

At first I thought it was the one I waited for so long

The one which can help me throw away my frustrations

Sad thing was, it only added insult to injury

Hope abandoned me like a homeless child.

And that call was a bad sign

And I knew it was something I didn’t want to hear

But I pressed “Answer” anyway

Then she dropped the bomb slowly

Used non-offensive words, but I knew better.

And then I felt the dementors-like environment

A scene I compared to Harry Potter’s

My happiness instantly faded away, that I felt the need to cry

But I remembered one of the exercises in Paulo Coelho’s The Pilgrimage,

The so-called “Cruelty Exercise”; I needed pain for diversion

I inflicted myself physical pain, tried to divert my thoughts, alas!..I failed!

The inward pain was more tormenting.

My mind was stuck, yet I tried to brainwash myself, ” Move on!”

Then I saw two cars in the middle of the crossroad,

It was an obvious, unwanted collision and it caught my attention.

And Hey! I succeeded! I forgot about it for a while, 

When the feeling came back, it was not as painful as the first blood.

In a quick trance,a realization sunk in,

That while I live, while I still breathe, I have more opportunities to grab.

My problem was no bigger than the others’ out there,

Who may be fighting for their lives.

I punished myself for something unworthy.

In that instant, I moved on! 

 

 

*God was great, nobody got hurt*

 

 

I just saw in TV Patrol report tonight via TFC (The Filipino Channel) about the arrival of one of Korea’s best male groups, BIGBANG, in the Philippines. Lots of Filipino VIPs waited in the exit area of NAIA, with their banners and voices ready–ready to scream. And me, being unable to be physically present at that magical moment (and I started to be a fangirl again), I stalked the group through twitter with the help of other VIPs who tweeted and who were actually there. And one photo caught my attention really seriously. When I view the picture, I cracked so hard, that I felt like an idiot laughing in front of my computer. People in front of me wondered, but i never cared.

“I GOT A CHANCE TO BE WITH GD AND TOP… BEAT THAT!!”. XD

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*credits to the source

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